heyyy ppl! i just gonna do a quick update before i sleep. i have to wait for that stuppid Vanny to call me!!! anyway, i just finish my MYE last week! (: i kinda screwed almost every subject except erm maybe chinese and english? (: hahhaha but i kinda got clear got certain concepts for chemistry and mathematics already just that not in time for the MYE lohh, so i just like learn from it then next time it will come into good use! :D
hahhah anyway, life is getting better and i getting use to many things now, hahha i am proud of myself for overcoming all this SHIT hahaha. but so far i realise i made a very wrong mistake is choosing what i shouldnt choose. and that is my current cca luhh, i can blabber here cause my current school mates doesnt think that this blog even exist! :D
hahahha so here i am in SRJC, in SRJC ROCMOC, feeling totally SHITTY. i am the MOST UNFIT person there, and a person that have a body of a climber and YETTT CANNOT CLIMB. and when i mean i CANNOT CLIMB, i am not trying to be humble or anything, i really mean i SUCK in climbing. LIKE SEROUSLY. i should have just joined band in SRJC luhh. damn it.
anyways, some ppl there hate me for being a SUCKER. but thats not the point, ppl think i am whinny and all 'niang niang' and i SHOULD JUST QUIT CLIMBING. but hello, i am 'niang niang' when i am NOT CLOSE TO YOU. and bloody hell thats not my real character. i am just trying to be NICE. dont make me go to the extend that i become MEAN and then you come and kp me loh. seriously. so everything is solved except this problem.
AND YES, I AM GONNA QUIT SOONER OR LATER. SO ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?
yup so maybe this is the REAL big mistake i made. D:
siannn, but acting like myself in JC is still really hard luhh, my real self is starting to disappear! i can totally feel it.
hahahha and yesterday i just went out with my class for a class outing (: not bad quite awesome but i got severe sunburn like seriously serious! so i am as red as a lobster! (:
and tomorrow i got the BLOODY CLIMBING COMPETITION.
and i am totally not in the mood (aka 'niang niang'to certain ppl) to even participate lohh. WTFFF.
and i just had my class photo taking today and the teachers survey, and then i went home to slack and sleeeep (: hhahahha! damn it i am bloody not looking forward to tomorrow. D: SCREWWWW IT. DD:
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heyy ppl sorry for not blogging for a WHOLE ENTIRE 5 months!!! OMG! first of all i am in SRJC, if you all still didnt know and i am in ROCMOC (rock climbing)! anyways life is really really tough nowadays i am still amazingly holding on, i feel so bad to neglect all my sec sch friends for JC, and i really really miss them so so muchh! D: mid years are in 2 weeks time and i haven started studying yet, i have lots to do yet i am just so unwilling.
i also just got my lappy a week ago as my birthday gift from my parents luhh! and i celebrated my birthday with my JC friends and ROCMOC friends! but i really rather celebrate it with my sec sch friends and my family D:
anyway its no time to regret now. for making this choice to come to a not so awesome JC and to suffer. i just hope i call pull through all these and not to lose my REAL SELF in the process. i really hope all my sec sch besties will not leave me too or else i will really really give up on doing all this SHIT. FOR SURE.
anyway, its been a very unhappy year so far for me and i hope things do not get worst.
P.S: i just finished my PI and i got my project work grouping already. i ho-pe life is NOT GOING TO GET TOUGHER.
P.P.S: i really wanna go back to my sec sch life, i really want to, like seriously. and i want to be able to talk to all my besties like there is no tomorrow, and to ramble all i want and that they will bring me and push me through all this SHIT. i REALLY MISS ALL OF YOU.
and you do not know how much i mean it. I REALLY REALLY NEED ALL OF YOU. DD:
*typing all this is making me cry again. everything is killing me. someone pull me out of this soon and put me back on track.
goodnight ppl, i will blog to ramble for sure cause this IS the ONLY way.
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