this post is full of vulgarities. dont blame me.
i am like fucking upset with my results. i got a B4 & a merit for my Chinese. i really did my best & studied to my fullest. & yet, this is what i get, i m fcuking pissed. i realise that 好人没有人没有好报. some random ppl can just skip the studying part and does random pick during examination and can still get an A2 for Chinese? are kidding me? someone that doesnt even speak Chinese getting an A2? can you imagine how unfair this is? i freaking studied so hard for Chinese and yet what happens? i got a stupid B4 & an idiotic Merit for my oral.
what kind of logic is that? bragging half his life. going everything through luck & natural intelligence. & yet he still gets to led a wondrous life full of good results, praises & whats more? good school, tons praises, bright future, a life without restriction?
yet here i m suffering all the stress that i cannot even manage and terrible results even with maximum effort? comparison with other ppl of not even my standard? discouragement instead of encouragement? millions of restriction to even count? the amount of ppl that look down on me? the amount of misunderstanding caused?
i have suffered all these for years now, i have suffered without even uttering a word. bottled everything inside me, isnt that enough? this is one of the most important years in my life. cant it just be better & not worst?
whatever it is. if it is my fate that i have to suffer so much. then i shall go against it. never to surrender until the day when i really cannot take it. thats it.
in conclusion,
to this fcuking person below:
TEO ZHI YING,
you fcuking watch your back. one day when i excel you, you fcuking dont regret. & i swear i will make you suffer for what i suffered for. & i swear i will excel you in o levels or else i m not LIM YIHUI. clear enough? & when that time comes, your that will lose his face to my dad & you will die & suffer in my command. that is what you will fcuking get for making me suffer. so what if you are smarter then me? it doesnt mean i cannot excel you. i will & i can excel you. the day when your torture starts dont come begging to me.
we'll see about that.
P.S : even though this set back has cause me to be super upset, but, i will not give up. & i hope tomorrow's music elective test will go fine & today's english oral will also be alright i tried my best & did my best.
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